Hi readers, Kate here! Cheers to my first blog post EVER. I want to start out with some deep thinking, but not too deep!
Truth be told, traveling awakens the emotional in me. I’m not sure if you can relate to this, but hear me out because this isn’t a sad story, but more empowering! On this most recent trip across the Caribbean I had an amazing experience, getting to know myself. How cliche, but hey, it happened.
Oh man, the highest highs and lowest lows. I danced solo on the dance floor, while everyone else watched from their seats in the bar. I had a ridiculously huge (note: sober) smile on my face, because I did not care what anyone else thought! My friend Barb and I rode tandem on a very sketchy scooter through the Bahamas, soaking up the sun + breeze and hollering a lot of “woo-hoo’s”! The last day was in Miami and for most people it is a rad place! For me…I try to avoid Miami in particular and have been for over a year now. But, on that last day after the Bahamas, we landed in Miami, and I had to bite the bullet. Past memories of a long relationship are rooted in this exact location. I was sitting in the rain, at a coffee shop in Wynwood, crying quietly… some stupid tears. My anxiety was on high and my world was foggy. I was a complete sad mess! Thank you to Barb who intentionally and genuinely listened to me. No real advice was needed, I just had to cry some anxiety and memories out. Old memories stirred up and I dealt with it in the best way I knew how. I didn’t think I could get through that day, but, I totally did.
In just one week, I felt the biggest amount of freedom that I had felt in a LONG time, and the biggest amount of fear, despair and grief. Now I won’t label these emotions as “good or bad” because all these things happen to propel me forward! In the most raw and unapologetic way, I actually felt free to be me without judgment or shame.
This quote from r.m drake stuck out to me the other day. It says, “don’t ever think the tears and the sleepless nights were for nothing. sometimes you have to cry and go through hell to move on.”
The Bahamas and Miami weren’t exactly “hell” lol… but I’ve realized that I have been dragging my mindset through some deep mud for too long! I didn’t think I could face being in Miami, but I did it. And yeah, I think I deserve a huge trophy of accomplishment!
Every day we get the choice of where our mindset lies. Grace is given to us, so when we fall down, we can get back up!
“It’s ok to fall down and lose your spark. Just make sure that when you get back up, you rise as the whole damn fire.”